Guardian Angels Do Exist
Hello beautiful people,
This has been a post I’ve been wanting to share for a while, but honestly have struggled to articulate the words about the many beautiful instances of a higher power throughout the journey I’ve been on. May I please ask that you go through this post with an open heart and open mind.
If you have ever been through a tough journey or dark time in life, I’m sure you too have touched a realm of spirituality you didn’t even know was possible. When things here on earth seem so out of touch and so out of your control you learn to deeply rely on your spiritual faith to guide you and bring you comfort.
Ever since my diagnosis in July 2023, this has definitely been the case for me.
During the time between diagnosis and starting my treatment plan, I was the most fearful and anxious. I spent my time journaling, walking outdoors, meditating, speaking with mentors, trying to find meaning in everything, and watching YouTube videos like this one on repeat while I just sobbed. All of these things brought me peace. I just knew I couldn’t go through this journey alone.
Before I started treatment I started working with an energy healer. I needed a healing partner who could see things and understand things in my body that doctors just can’t. Energy healers help with clearing negative energies and channeling healing energies into the body, even just through the phone. The experience of working with him was extremely eye-opening and helped me learn so much about myself.
I called my energy healer immediately when the doctors found a second mass on my right ovary - I was honestly so scared and thought my life was a stake, because it was, if the cancer would have spread from my breast to my ovaries. He told me right away that he didn’t believe it was cancerous and that I shouldn’t worry about it. (I can tell you that this is easier said than done) He gave recommendations for ways for me to raise my energetic state so that I wasn’t stuck in a fearful one with this news.
However, over the course of a few more sessions, I kept inquiring about the mass on the ovary. I just couldn’t let it go and stop thinking about what was potentially growing inside me. He told me he had his colleague “look at it” (in energy healing there isn’t anything they physically look at by the way) and he said she too said that the thing on the ovary is “just a nuisance”. Come to find out after a laparoscopic surgery about two months later, the mass indeed was benign and nothing to worry about.
But there is one session that shocked me and made me realize I truly wasn’t alone in this journey.
Spiritual Sighting #1 - Angel Numbers
In a session with my energy healer, I inquired about the mass on the ovary and wanted him to check it out and see if there was anything I could do or needed to know about it. So I asked, “I am really nervous about this ovary mass, what are you seeing there?” He gets really quiet for a bit, then almost flinches as if a bug was flying at his face and then he said: “Do you know that you have guardian angels looking over you? They are going to make sure everything is okay.” I broke down.
He told me that he was being approached by angels. I told him I had started to feel that awareness myself and get the feeling of being watched over because I had been seeing the numbers 444 everywhere. When I looked up those angel numbers (a repeating number sequence with deep spiritual meaning) it turns out they meant…
444: If you’re navigating a challenge, and have been trying to get guidance from your spirit guide or signs from the universe, noticing the number 4 all around you can serve as evidence that you’re being heard. Your angels are guiding you, surrounding you, and answering your prayers of protection. It may be a time of struggle, but you are being led into the light by your guardians.
How crazy?! Just a few days before my gas bill was $44.44, these solar lights I got for my lawn were on sale for $4.44, my sister-in-law and I were playing a game and she said she had a hand full of all of the same number cards - I asked, “Are they 4’s!?” She said… “How did you know?!” I said because that number has been popping up everywhere for me and my guardian angels were letting me know that my prayers are being heard.
That is why you see me wearing a necklace with 444 on it and it will be printed on some of the Brave Beautiful Boobies merch that comes out (very soon!). It’s such a special angel number for me because, during a time when I felt so scared and out of control, I also felt so deeply taken care of by my guardian angels.
Recently, as my journey has progressed, I have been seeing the numbers 222 more often which mean:
Harmony and balance. Whenever you see this number, you are being asked to trust the process and have faith in yourself. This number is a confirmation that you are on the right path, but to make progress in the direction of your soul’s purpose you must continue to follow your joy. Stay the course and will be rewarded!
This angel number perfectly describes the place in the journey I’m at, now with 15 out of 16 healing sessions done, I am trusting the process and know that I am on the right path to healing.
Spiritual Sighting #2 - A Signed Softball
About one month before I found my “thing” on my breast, I pulled out my dusty old pink softball bag for the first time in 15 years. I joined a co-ed softball team in town and needed my trusty gear! As I grabbed some balls from my bag to play catch I quickly realized that one was more special than the others.
This ball was signed by the members of an old softball team and by a friend, a late friend - Rachel, who went to heaven in 2012 due to a melanoma diagnosis. I quickly shoved the ball back into my bag and kept it safe.
After our game, I pulled the ball back out and had a moment with it, feeling all the feels for a dear friend who didn’t get to experience so many things I have been blessed to. Graduating high school, going to college, studying abroad, getting married, buying my first house. These big yet simple things were taken from her all because of a diagnosis, and little did I know I would be getting a breast cancer diagnosis in the next two months.
You may not know this about me, but back in 2017 I also had a mole on my inner left thigh removed that tested positive for melanoma. This is another instance in my life that shook me to my core and made me re-evaluate my health.
What the heck is with my body producing bad cells!? It’s terrifying honestly.
I took a picture of the ball and posted it on Rachel’s Facebook Page, letting her know I was thinking of her. 6 months later her stepdad reached out to me and thanked me for sharing that memory, and that he too had very fond memories playing softball with her and coaching our teams. He shared her favorite bible verse:
Romans 8:28: And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
And her favorite page that she would read over and over in the book “Jesus Calling”. It’s the page for February 1st:
“Follow Me One Step at a Time. That is all I require of you. In fact, that is the only way to move through this space/time world. You see huge mountains looming, and you start wondering how you're going to scale those heights. Meanwhile, because you're not looking where you're going, you stumble on the easy path where I am leading you now. As I help you get back on your feet, you tell Me how worried you are about the cliffs up ahead. But you don't know what will happen today, much less tomorrow. Our path may take an abrupt turn, leading you away from those mountains. There may be an easier way up the mountains than is visible from this distance. If I do lead you up the cliffs, I will equip you thoroughly for that strenuous climb. I will even give My angels charge over you, to preserve you in all your ways.
Keep your mind on the present journey, enjoying My Presence. Walk by faith, not by sight, trusting Me to open up the way before you.”
It was so special connecting and relating with her stepdad. I felt so comforted by knowing what bible verses and books helped her through her cancer battle at such a young age. I now carry them with me on my very own journey.
I let her stepdad know, that I truly believe by finding Rachel’s signed softball prior to my diagnosis that she was paying me a visit and wanted to let me know she was watching over me. After all, my energy healer said I had guardian angels watching over me and at this point the closest people to me that I know of in heaven are my grandpa and Rachel, that’s it.
Spiritual Sighting #3 - Granny-O’s Favorite Animal
I am happy, yet saddened to announce that I have a new guardian angel watching over me. My sweet Granny-O’s went to heaven on January 18th.
I feel so blessed to have spent time with her several times over the last few months after she was put into hospice in October. We had the most amazing Christmas together (her favorite holiday) and afterward, she had a TIA stroke in early January that started her process of going to heaven.
My Granny-O’s was such a role model for me in my life. Even though she was in pain, she never complained. Even when she was at a loss for words, she used humor. Most of all - she had so much hope and zest for life, even during her final weeks here on this earth.
I have never been this close or seen firsthand the natural process of death. While it’s hard, it’s part of the circle of life and I found it very magical in a way.
The last conversation I had with my Granny-O’s was on FaceTime the day before her passing. She hadn’t spoken or responded in a few days, but she mouthed my name while I was speaking to her which made me realize she could still hear me even if she couldn’t talk. I let her know what an amazing person she is and all of the people who loved her, and a single tear dropped from her left eye. I told you, it was magical.
While we miss her dearly, we know she is in a better place with better health. We know that her healing couldn’t be accomplished here on earth and feel so at peace knowing her health has been restored in heaven and she is reunited with her husband, parents, and all of her siblings. 91 years is truly a legacy to live, one could only be so fortunate.
Less than a week after my Granny-O’s passing I had my first cardinal sighting. Red, was my Granny-O’s favorite color and she just adored birds and loved watching them out her window. I was on a walk in my neighborhood with my dog, Mochi, and all of a sudden saw a flutter of red on the ground in the snow. It was a cardinal within arms reach, that was injured and was having trouble flying! My Granny-O’s couldn’t walk for the last few months of her life, so it made sense to me that this injured bird approached me to say hello. I saw no other birds on my walk, just that one special one!
I know Granny-O’s is flying high and watching over my journey, until we meet again.
Spiritual Sighting #4 - Jesus Is Here
I was recently spending time with a friend and her 2.5 year old daughter. During our afternoon together, her daughter randomly said “Jesus is here” two separate times. Out of nowhere. She was just playing and blurted it out. Both my friend and I looked at each other in disbelief.
As I thought about these instances later on in the evening I texted my friend to ask her if this was something her daughter often says. She shared that she had never said that before, and that she didn’t want to tell me at the time because she didn’t want me to cry (because of my grandma’s recent passing). My friend said “Jesus was definitely with you today. Maybe your granny dropping in to say hello.”
But kids sure know best, they have a greater awareness and sense of the world around us than we do as adults. I just know people from a higher place have been surrounding me. I know that prayers are being lifted up for me on the daily. It feels so amazing to get this type of reassurance that the messages are being received. It’s an unreal feeling to be so close to a realm (heaven) that once felt so far away, it has brought me to tears several times. All I know is that today there is a strong presence of people and angels in a higher place that have been comforting me throughout my journey.
I feel so grateful to be building a beautiful relationship with God during this time. He has already shown himself so many times in this journey & I can’t wait to continue seeing what he has in store for me.
In love and faith,
Xo, Breanna
